im a fuck up.
i don’t need anyone but me.
im my own biggest fan.
im crying because i know im not living up to my full potential and it kills me more and more everyday.
im so terrified im going to stay a worthless mess for the rest of my life.
it’s not because of you. it’s because of the person i allowed myself to become. i view you as the cherry on top of a marvelous existence. life goes on gloriously without you.
i’ve been pretending my whole life to be a strong, put together individual but i’m really just a scared, little girl.
who are you?
WHO AM I??!?!?!
literally everything makes me want to leave. but i know i would end up stranded on the side of some freeway a quarter of the way to new york. my heart, mind, and soul are so free and willing…why the fuck can’t i physically do ANYTHING??
also…
why does everything fall apart right around finals??? i’m always fucking dropping the ball the last two weeks. dfkhafadn.
hmnn.
maybe that’s adding to why i want to run away…
what the fuck am i doing?
oy-vay.
story of my life for the last week: long day of this and that followed by a mental breakdown. i think i’m going to be broken forever.
the most frustrating thing: the happier i try to be during my day the worse i feel by the end of it.
it’s all imaginary it’s all imaginary it’s all imaginary it’s all imaginary it’s all imaginary it’s all imaginary it’s all imaginary it’s all imaginary it’s all imaginary it’s all imaginary it’s all imaginary it’s all imaginary it’s all imaginary it’s all imaginary it’s all imaginary it’s all imaginary it’s all imaginary it’s all imaginary it’s all imaginary it’s all imaginary it’s all imaginary it’s all imaginary
it will stop hurting it will stop hurting it will stop hurting it will stop hurting it will stop hurting it will stop hurting it will stop hurting it will stop hurting it will stop hurting it will stop hurting it will stop hurting it will stop hurting it will stop hurting it will stop hurting it will stop hurting it will stop hurting it will stop hurting it will stop hurting it will stop hurting it will stop hurting it will stop hurting
wtf?!?!?!? usc lost?!?!?!
oh well. first time in 7 years to that team.
YOU STILL SUCK.
USC-FIGHT ONNNNN!!
i need a heart transplant.
